Tuesday, March 30, 2010
never ever though that i would agree so much with a physics law. for every action, there is indeed an equal and opposite reaction. happiness is no different. there is no free lunch in the world, happiness comes at a price. sometimes, the 'price' to pay comes back immediately, sometimes, it takes a while to see it's effect. but nevertheless, you have to trade something in return one day.
just yesterday, i felt a burden lifted off me, and today, my dad's hospitalised; today, i learnt that promises are meant to be broken, today, i learnt that effort does not translate into results. girl, maybe it really is a passing thing.
rachel ♥
10:46 PM
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Sunday, March 28, 2010
why must, just when things appear to be getting better, something like that happen? so is everything going to go back to square one? how many times must we try? but then again, it forces me to realise certain things.. what i think i am feeling and what i actually feel, are two different things...
i do cherish the same hope as you, and i really don't want this to just negate the past few days just like that. i know it wasn't that easy for you to start talking to me, it really wasn't easy for me either.
Perfect -- Hedley
Falling a thousand feet per second
You still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over
I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence
Takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over
And never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall
Even if you said I was wrong
I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my personality
When you're caught in a lie
And you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run
And you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me
You thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew
maybe, such an outcome is really inevitable... i don't know what to say anymore.
rachel ♥
6:52 PM
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Friday, March 26, 2010
i can't wait to go overseas, like seriously. i'll prove it to you. by then, make sure you keep your promise.
sometimes i just feel like giving up, it's all so tiring and futile, i don't even know wht it's all for anymore. the gifts and curses of life (:
rachel ♥
12:26 AM
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Sunday, March 21, 2010
When you're gone -- Avril Lavigne
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart, I'm missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do, reminds me of you,
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
i know the problem lies with me. and you're right. why make someone your top priority when you're only an option to them? i hate myself. but it doesn't change anything.i want to have selective amnesia.
rachel ♥
10:28 AM
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Friday, March 12, 2010
quoting amanda: "faith is to believe in what you do not yet see, and the reward in this faith is to see what you believe."
with life comes death. with death comes life. and the cycle repeats.
i will keep my promise to you. please be without regrets. rest in peace.
rachel ♥
10:59 PM
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Monday, March 8, 2010
what was it that changed? you? me? us? stop it, rachel. enough is enough. just bloody stop it.
i can't bring myself to do it. i'm sorry.
rachel ♥
1:11 AM
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Thursday, March 4, 2010
Nice song (:
Inconsolable -- Backstreet Boys
I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word
I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
OOoh, if you were here right now,I swear I'd tell you this
Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility
No, no, no
I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)
I really wanted to keep the 'liquid-ed' part. but i don't know how you'd react. and i can't afford to do any more things, to topple that balance. once again, overestimation. happy sweet 18th, and all the best.
rachel ♥
9:49 PM
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Monday, March 1, 2010
garh i'm tired -.- so what am i doing here o.0 can't get to sleep, again. gastric pain again. zzz.
another long week starting tmr. i want march hols! but what kind of hols is it with march camp and CO jixun :X nothing much good's been happening, just that i am actually starting to love my piano lessons! haha. made the decision to postpone my LR, and yup, i think relief is spelt out on my face -.- my teacher commented that i smiled more during the latest lesson than i ever did in the past 1 year combined HAHA. can tell he's more relaxed after i made my decision also larh, he suddenly became vry nice LOL. hopefully this continues. maybe i'll start loving practising piano -.- oh well. let's just hope first haha.
mum's gonna go for ptm. i'm screwed this time lol. esp for CSC and maths o.0 and maybe MEP. sigh. ohwell. goodluck to all for the mountains of tests (:
rachel ♥
12:31 AM
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