Tuesday, July 27, 2010
banging your head against a steel wall.
pain.
stabbing at your heart with a knife.
pain.
smiling through the tears.
pain.
pretending to not know.
pain.
acting like everything's ok.
pain.
the significance is lost. and efforts are futile. the night is long and cold. and one seeks solace in nothing, but the empty room, and the memories of what once was. the consequences, of unconditionality.
i'm gna fail my gp if i continue writing like that. incoherent, disjunct thoughts and sentences. sigh.
rachel ♥
11:44 PM
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Sunday, July 11, 2010
Broken -- Sezairi Sezali
Dropped off your keys last night,
the front door still unpainted.
You were polite like ice,
I, once could melt it.
You took our pictures down,
and you left them on the ground,
it's like you wiped all the memories,
of what we used to be...
You and me,
before it all crashed down.
And I know I never told you,
that I love you, now it's all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
but I want to, I don't want to leave this way.
All I know, is broken.
I heard your voice break when you said,
"Well I hope you're happy."
Nothin' to say, I'll stare,
straight into my coffee.
Then the conversation changed,
how we talked about the blame, and the pain of losing.
All of the good times lost,
when it all crashed down.
Well I'm here if you need me,
I know you don't believe me,
Well I'm so sorry,
for all the pain I've caused ho-ohhhh...
sometimes i really wonder why you ask me if you're not going to take what i said into consideration. since saying is equivalent to not saying, or even worse than not saying, why keep making me say? can you just respect me? and respect my feelings and wht i say if you want to know wht i'm thinking. theory vs reality. how scary for a theory you've always believed in to suddenly be proven wrong hmmm. it's not that i don't think through before i make my decisions; i don't know why things always go awry also. it's not like i ever wanted things to turn out like that. i cannot not face it anymore. fourth person. i've no choice but to believe it's the truth. and, it's really suffocating.
rachel ♥
12:30 AM
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Sunday, July 4, 2010
it's 2 am and my stomach's hurting like crap. the aftermath of 9'oclock dinner and 2 eclairs i had to finish up otherwise they'll spoil by tmr acc to my mum -.- zzz. freaking pain. on top of wht i saw which adds on to the unsettledness.. i should be sleeping soon -.- goodnight, world.
rachel ♥
2:02 AM
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Saturday, July 3, 2010
rewind. looking back at the past just makes me not want to let it all slip past me.
relish. all good things come to an end eh?
reminisce. i wish i could say i remember only the fond memories, but my heart won't let me.
refresh. i just want to experience that feeling once more.
remember. how can i ever forget?
replay. if only we were a video, and we could just do it once more.
rewrite. can we ever change what happened?
retry. why..? why.. not?
restart. please?
"love is forever." -- weicong
really?
another senseless post -.-
rachel ♥
11:45 PM
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