Saturday, March 8, 2008
holidays?
Yay. it's been a long time since i could breathe like this, without feeling duper stressed, even though there are still many things weighing me down. haha. though holidays aren't going to seem like one, at least it is still called holidays, and that warrants some looking forward to :D
just went out with liqin to watch leap years! (: don't wry i can watch it again, i won't mind very much, it's seriously a very nice show! i actually cried quite late into the show, quite surprising i could 'hold' so long. and i was still chiding myself for being cold-hearted and being shocked at not crying. haha. it's immediately after that thought that i started crying buckets. o.0 zzz... walked around after to get some stuff, and tada! now i'm home. haha. shangyin was actually ok, hmmm learnt a new song... haha teacher gave up on teaching me two of the songs cos he knew it wasn't my style -.- omg is my 'style' really so easily recognisable? hmm... their perception of me.. is it really me?
it's time to try to rework my body clock this holidays, finish up all my homework, PACK THE ROOM, file all my stuff, do the things i need to do, blah blah blah i know that's a lot and i essentially only have 168 hours! :O argh... it's time to get cracking! happy 'holidays' everyone! jiayou! (:
i am sorry i am unable to give you an answer, but actually you already have an answer in mind. and that answer you think is the 'right one', has already been fixed, confirmed and decided, so it actually doesn't make a difference what my answer is, as you won't accept it if it's not what you want. isn't it? you don't know how bad you make me feel with all your smses and the tone you use, and when i see you emo how much i am at a loss for words. maybe you can try seeing things from a different light? and maybe you will understand how hard it is. i don't blame you at all. really. i can understand how you are feeling when you look at this matter from that point of view. after all, it concerns you in a way. maybe i don't have the capacity to care. or maybe, i don't have the right to love anyone...
rachel ♥
6:45 PM
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