Wednesday, February 24, 2010
just completed the super irritating CSC proj. wth larh, the topic is so damn difficult -.- and we are not even supposed to be doing this. oh whatever. jiayou jiayanz! (:
finished chem tutorial in school today! feel kinda accomplished haha. at least i guess i can concentrate much better in school than at home somehow... not that there aren't any distractions in school lol. but then.. better than at home i guess. heard that chem test is postponed.. ok larh to me doesn't make much of a difference, just that i get to 'relax' abit more only one week later lorh. haha. but then again.. next week, gp test and math test T.T can't afford to screw up any... sigh. term 1's coming to an end alr.. it's so fast.. haha i think by the time it finally sinks in that i will no longer see the people who i have been seeing around for 6 years (most of them anyway) starting from the start of next year (which will come damn soon i swear), it'll.. i don know wht kind of effect it'll have on me -.- empty, maybe?
but then again, life is meant for partings. yup. there is no such thing as forever. you must be super lucky if you get to experience it. haha. like wht. 1 in a million? trillion? gazillion? lol. you came into this world alone, and yup, you will leave, alone too, in the end.
rachel ♥
1:28 AM
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Monday, February 22, 2010
tried to do abit for the csc proj -.- but i realised i actually don't really know wht's the topic! like wht on earth are we supposed to do. cos i can't really find articles/ passages that link those two issues together sigh. csc test was kinda screwed anw, managed to crap things out which was phew and thank god it wasn't economics or the nong cun thing, but still, i hope i can scrape a C or sth.
most hectic weekend of this year so far.. with huayi fest performance and boot camp! bootcamp was... another memorable experience with tequila, to think this will be the 2nd last camp together, and the 4th last official event haha. ohwell. congrats to those who got in! for those who didn't, i hope you'll learnt something as well.. and yup, do continue to serve in your own capacity. all the best! (:
and though i'm slightly disappointed, i wish you all the best.. and i'll support your decisions. i admire your courage, and no matter wht, i'll always be proud of you, and i'll always be behind you if you ever need me. smile, cos your bubbly and optimistic personality will get you far in life. jiayou!chuida performance for huayi festival finally over and today's two dizi pieces were nothing but screwed o.0 to us, at least. at least jiangjunling and longteng managed to get the mood high in the end! and yup it was one of the best long tengs i played, and it's the 2nd last one (: maybe the tears will come with the last one. idk. the longest song i ever learnt and played. haha. all the memories from sec 1, when we hun4 like nobody's business, and when you are a senior, there's just this obligation to hun4 less -.- HAHA. but with juniors like jiayu and yihui and beverly.. (: haha which maybe was why at one period of time today only jiayu was playing! though it's more of us trying to catch up / slow down for each other o.0 whatever, wht's over it's over. really hope that long teng was enough to negate and make up for the horrid dizi performances... no use harping on it though anw, so just fingers crossed (:
if only i could treat it in this same manner... and in case you were wondering...
you still are, everything to me.
rachel ♥
12:45 AM
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Thursday, February 18, 2010
you might say some things and then regret them later, but that's life.
some say the world is very small, yup it is, when you chance upon friends long lost touch with and when you meet people after like wht, 10, 20 years. or just like peirong and i, being sec sch friends after 2 years in kindergarten and no contact since pri sch.
but, the world can be deceivingly big, when you don't ever get to meet people you miss so dearly, when you don't have the 'fate' to see people whom you are dying to, but due to various cirucmstances, can't 'afford' to meet up with.
the ironies of the world. so much for balance in gp, huh. (:
rachel ♥
7:14 PM
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Monday, February 15, 2010
my mum 'quarrelled' with my dad today cos he forgot to buy her vday present! LOL! so while i went to the toilet with my mum he hurried to buy my mum's present + my bday card o.0 HAHA. my mum remembered that my dad forgot to get her present when she saw the girlfriends holding bouquets of flowers HAHA. and she asked if i wanted her to get me one -.- and back to the usual talk about why i'm not blah blah blah and why i never blah blah blah never knew she was so supportive and open about such things -.- oh well, too little too late HAHA.
was nice seeing couples around actually, yup spread the love... haha. first time at a shopping mall during new year (maternal granddad's hospitalised, one less place to visit; pls get well soon..) and yup the swensen's ppl wanted to sing bday song for me... but srsly.. no thanks HAHA. somehow didn't have much birthday luck, lost quite a bit at my aunt's house. but recouped my losses back home :D YAY. i'm not supposed to be using the com during cny but oh well. it's beckoning me :D and my bro 'chided' me for not using the banana cushion -.- he gave me, so i opened it and hugged it to make him happy HAHA. ok larh, quite comfortable but my mum said my bro was cheapskate cos he bought the smallest one :D LOL. ohwell. nevermind. and my bro was like why nvr give the keychain to ... hello ray tang, if you ever see this, don't have larh, give wht give haha. so stop talking rubbish in front of everyone, srsly. my bro's actly quite poor thing larh, he has been targeted by my mum recently whether he has a ********** or not HAHA and i'm adding fuel to the fire :D who ask him to keep 'framing' me LOL. whatever, that's where the fun of having a sibling goes eh? thanks for all the well wishes today, and esp from those who i haven't met you in super long, thanks so so so much yup (: you guys really touched me haha. takecare!
i guess there's really nothing left to be said.. maybe i think too much, but like wht they say, you care only cos that person matters.
rachel ♥
12:15 AM
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Saturday, February 13, 2010
for a while, i saw hope. and with the hope came that bit of expectations. but in the end, it's just disappointment once more. what's there to be upset about? you never promised me anything, you never said anything. pr's right. it was just me who was too naive. it's my fault for being unable to let go. it's not that i never tried. i make retarded 'bets' with people. but then again, jeenise's right. i make those bets thinking that i would win them. which means i alr have in mind wht i want the outcome to be. what for make those 'bets' and be upset over them in the end? and those birthday wishes... are also made knowing that they're not going to happen. going to be 18... but i realised i'm far from mature.
chinese new year eve... sorry for those negative thoughts HAHA. i really had to get it out of my system somehow...
on a happier note, thank you to everyone for the gifts and well-wishes... esp...
6C23 for the super sweet 18 balloons, birthday song, card and cake, although i had a really really hard time transporting the balloons from one place to another! the cake as well... it's still intact in my fridge. HAHA.
EXCO 0708 for the birthday song + cake, it's always a nice feeling to meet up with you all, though sometimes attendance may not be complete, and we may only have a few short minutes together, but thanks, really.
Daniel, Dilys, Jeenise, JieTing, Liqin, Yilin. Thank you for rushing down to the 'other side of the world' -- (Jurong East LOL), and also taking the time to design the jacket. It's the first time I'm receiving a personalised jacket, and seriously, i was very touched haha. Thanks for the pumps too! Thank you so so much for everything, on top of being awesome friends.
Xiangyu -- my dearest 11-yr (old LOL) friend for the water bottle plus card... reading your card brought back many memories... haha. and yup, i can feel the sincerity.. HAHA. so.. thanks so much!
Yuan Jun for that lovely cup set! Jie, although we don't really talk much now, thank you for never forgetting me and for letting me know i can count on you.
Peirong for the bracelet and the tigget post-its, yup i like them larh don't worry :D thanks darling. i've said whatever i wanted to in your birthday letter (:
Wei Xun for the bracelet. Thanks for being a great gor... a much better mei than i am to you lol.
Chaoyuan for the tigger keychain (I LOVE TIGGER!!!) thanks mortal (:
Amanda for the lovely gift pack, no larh i never thought my angel was horrid. cos everyone's vry busy.. HAHA. thanks so much anyway, exclusive coupon ftw (:
Dilys ong, stupid CO angel, for the retarded shampoo + conditioner set. HAHA CHEAPO! i buy you soap ok :D
Lua Jia Min (mortal!!!) for the lovely scheduler and the keychain (:
and you, for giving me hope though you might not know it. pls don't take that away from me.. it's something i can't do without.among others, Jeenise, Liqin, Shiying, Cindy, Chaoyuan, Linda, Nicholas, Beverly, Zhenzhen, Joylynn, Rachel Chua, Wen Xin, Pamela, Guiju, Weijie, Sophia, Jiayanz for the Vday gifts :D
Thank you everyone, for the birthday cum vday wishes, really appreciate them <3
I'm tired lol. have to go for reunion dinner later, had piano this morning and i was out shopping for new year stuff with my parents till 2 am ytd -.- HAHA. ok then, takecare everyone! HAPPY VDAY / CNY / TOTAL DEFENCE DAY LOL in advance (:
rachel ♥
3:19 PM
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Sunday, February 7, 2010
it's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want.i hope not, but it's a very strong intuition. and they're usually right. so what exactly does it mean? never ever, anymore? and i continue hoping, with the thought at the back of my mind that if only i wished hard enough, we would someday be back at where we were.
rachel ♥
8:40 PM
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