Friday, January 28, 2011
it's been kinda long since i last updated here so i doubt anyone will come here anymore.. right? so many things have happened in the past year, from the biggest hurdle of A levels down to the things which once seemed so big and important to me but now, upon looking back, i realise how stupid and foolish i was. many lessons learnt, through the hard way, and i've never ever found the answer i want, but perhaps time really heals all wounds, or maybe i'm forcing myself to believe in that with conviction. the pain has dissolved, but the scar remains. it's evident that people move on, so why can't i do the same on my part? and as usual, i always cause my own predicaments :X how stupid. remember this lesson, and never allow yourself to fall again in this manner. you can't afford it, you know it yourself. which explains why...
teaching internship has been really tiring but fun in a way actly, getting to meet new ppl (fellow interns you'en hweetian daphne!!) and also students who are actly super funny. yup they do mug, but actly i dont think they are that diff from dh. students are still students, just as playful, just as childlike, just as funny in their own rights. i actly miss dh, cos now i no longer have legitimate reasons to see some ppl who i wish to, cos after all, we belong to diff leagues in life, don't we? and our paths may well nvr cross again. but nevertheless, learn to give thanks for all i have, cos i never know when they will be taken away from me as well. some ppl really treat me much better than i ever deserve. ohwells. haha seems super emo, but i'd rather think of it being reflective.
cny's coming soon, then vday, but this year seems diff in that certain ppl are going into the army soon, and i also wonder whether some will rmbr... cny cny. everytime i say i'm gna start afresh. but i never can. this time, i'd better make it. i'm gna go overseas anw. i have to. the few years away will make that diff. so i have to do all i can to secure that. argh. the complexities of life.
rachel ♥
8:31 AM
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